feel like making some drabble.. huhu..
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random drabble
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i still felt like closing my eyes and fell once again into a shallow sleep. really. if you weren't there i might have fallen asleep. soon i tried my best to keep my eyes open, shifted aside and went have a good look on you. you, the actually already perfect you, who was trying to fix your look here and there, feeling imperfect. you were about to go already, and i couldn't do anything about it. i kept my eyes opened no matter how hard it was, i had to seize this last moment at least, moment in which you were around.
'can't you stay?' i asked a stupid question that i had known the answer of. well, it shouldn't hurt that bad trying, should it?
you answered simply with a smile and a light chuckle.
'just get some rest, okay?' you said as you patted my hair and put a kiss there.
'and how bad i want you to be by my side later when i wake up,' again you only smiled in respond to my silly words.
'get well soon'
'get home soon'
yeah, how bad i want you to be near later when i wake up.. just to make sure i wasn't dreaming.. nor being delusional..
and so i closed my eyes. falling.
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piano after fall~ series
sei, anzu
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i blankly watched your moves. drowned, pulled, tangled, tied, captivated. on how you were being you, or perhaps acting as the 'calm' you, in a situation that normal people shouldn't be able to.. or they should. who knew.
'are you alright?' you asked. funny, i was about to ask the same question.
'well, i think the question should be addressed to you..'and then you just smiled.
i knew exactly that i didn't look relaxed at all, that was why you asked. Like who would just be relaxed after watching someone having heavy family argument because of YOU, a stranger out of nowhere. i wanted to apologize, but i held the words in my head. apology didn't seem to be right in the circumstances, plus it might offend you somewhat, for sure.
'i'm so.. no.. thank-..' i sighed 'what am i to you, actually?' this stupid brain of mine end up making me spitting up such question. such honest question. i could feel my cheek burning, and i just wished i could bury my self. well, i did half the effort actually. i looked down and buried my face in my arms, mumbling 'never mind, please'
'don't worry. it happens a lot. it's just kinda a bit sharper this one.'
i looked up in confusion. yeah they might argue often, but that last one was because of ME, plus it's SHARPER. like hell i wasn't worried.
'you're not answering nor calming me'
'i thought you said never mind..' and i went back burying my face to embarrassment, only to fish out that adorable giggle of yours.
'do you love me?' you asked
'i don't have any reason not to..'
'good. do i hurt you by having things like this?'
'like what?' hurt me...??? like i was the one supposed to.
'making you worry and stuff. tell me if it's hurt. tell me when you want to scatter me away. i will stop, i promise.'
LIKE HOW ON EARTH I WOULD WANT TO DO THAT!!!!
something exploded within me.
'there's no way you can hurt me...'i whispered
'but you don't look alright..' you stared at me with concern 'i'm making you not at ease already.'
'it's because i might just hurt you!!!' bzzt whatever.. i just can't be at ease anyway
and surprisingly
you LAUGHED
argh
'how can you be so calm about this?????'
'about what?'
'oh... it's just me or wasn't i just... urgh.. ijustrecentlyfellforyou-butthensuddenlyitriggeryourfamilyfightalready-yourmommusthateme-ihavenochancewithyou'
and that, again, fished out your chuckle. a whole-poweredly-held back laughter..
'NOT FUNNY!! IT'S FRUSTRATING!' i went scrambling my hair in despair, stopped by your soft hand grabbing my palm, making me to turn my gaze at you. as on hand of yours held mine, the other trying to fix out my hair, eyes still on each others.
'will you give up then?' you asked
'NO! DEFINITELY.' your eyes softened. great. i think i have stop breathing
'i love you then.' you smiled. crap. i think i'm having a cardiac arrest.
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i'll perhaps making some more with the label piano after fall :D
i'm not good in making long stories, so i decide to make drabbles in series hahahah.. not really in a smooth sequence nor that much related to another, but all the chara will have bonds :)
watched kimi wa petto recently, and voice, and now ryuusei no kizuna...
one thing in common between them? hhmm.. let's see.. bonds between human are really amazing neee???
and i really want to keep nino as a brother and matsujun as a pet :p
let's work hard for more piano after fall, workpiece, and the next super hectic module >.<
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