wtf

don't mind the title, it's simply the first thing that comes in my mind once i realize what's actually happening.
a one long late realization that is..
damn.

credit to: thingsweforget.blogspot.com

don't bottle it up. seriously.
you'll get surprised by how much unnecessary hatred, how big the storm of misunderstanding created by shutting self down when you shouldn't.

i don't do premonition, i don't have 6th sense or stuff... i wouldn't know if you don't tell me...
just call me cold or something how i simply tactless for not noticing... i'm not observant enough, i'm not warm enough... yeah i know...

that's why, just say it...

i'm not good with people, never been good in it.
and if you're curious, yeah i've been wondering why i'm working in this field. or will be working in such field.

shit.

why can't people just say what they have in mind.

having high hopes on getting noticed when you're down is, in my opinion, stupid.
i've been there. for quite many times, many enough that i quit hoping someone will realized there's something wrong even when i say i'm fine.

i quit giving clues.
so i quit hoping.
so i quit hurting.

maybe that's exactly what makes me never notice much of someone else.