i sorta realize that i was somekind of a vengeful psycho back then in elementary

probably still am.

okay that's scary. never have the guts to actually execute the revenge, but still, scary.

i think i pulled a prank to my friend without actually having any specific reason. the kind of prank that really wasn't funny. and i didn't even feel happy doing it, as far as i remembered.

and i often got angry for silly reasons. now too.

but having a fight because of a phone charm was totally -________________-;;;;;



and I'm really never good at making up



probably I done those psyche pranks sorta because i was jealous, something like "ah i want that too why can't i have that why she has that instead of me"

but seeing things now... i think i love what i have already...

there are still things i want to achieve. and there are people i know who i got jealous of for having things that i want to have.

but no, i don't think i will trade anything in my life for what they have. I'm happy having the realization of being wrong, knowing i've done wrong, when i do wrong. I have the motivation to change things and fix my mistakes, i'll just need to put extra effort on continuosly held up myself from re-doing the mistakes.

no, really... no matter what you have make me jealous... i love being me and i don't wanna be you. if i want to have those things, i'll just go have it my way.