let's make it short
i'm not gonna go all poetic and stuff
it's not a heart break confession
it's a succeeded get over attempt, i guess
cheer me with confetti!~
you're not such a good muse
or you are, but you just don't put me in the right mood
i don't feel like remembering you
no, really.. i've fed up with it many times
it's something that a best friend wrote on my facebook wall
referring to a gorgeous sweetheart idol couple
"they worked out.. what if actually you could just work out?"
oh what if..
if you had given me the chance
if you had glimpsed a little
if you just had a look
if you just tried
how many times i have said ~ or written~ these sentences again? countless? yeah perhaps..
i don't have time to whine
i'm kinda sure you don't even remember about my existence for now
may be you will remember me when we met, but else, i'm nowhere in mind
and it's actually nice to know that you have someone to hold now
*oh gee the end rhymes!* *okay never mind*
how long is it since the last time i saw you? almost 7 months
and amazingly i'm alright with it
remembering how i once cried for haven't seeing you for only 3 months haha
or it's may be it's not amazing, it's just about time i'm over you
sir,
no i won't forget you
no i don't love you
i'm imagining how things would actually be like later when we were older
how i would end up a gynecologist
how i would help you and your wife with your baby
how i was sure you're gonna regret not befriending with me from the beginning
and how i know exactly i would just give in to something called 'friendship with mr JD' oh so easily
yes i will
you can come anytime
right at this moment
later when we graduate
when we were much older
when i'm helping you with your baby
when our children somewhat befriended each other
oh how i will always give in befriending with you
i will always welcome
let's just not think over much for now, okay
time will tell
you will regret
and i will just welcome.. hahaha
oh yeah.. and the truth is, i kinda miss you
*bricks*
nope i don't think i still head over heel in love with you
i'm not interested in viewing your profile or picture anymore
and plus you look a lot uglier than i remembered in those picture
i kinda miss how i can be so bold and brave and strong and straight forward when i was loving you
i guess that's what they say loving someone makes you complete
because i'm having a situation here: i'm too scared to love someone for now, to get hurt and stuff
and that makes me wonder: how could i not afraid when it was about you?
HAHAHAHA *more bricks*
so i think i miss the feeling of being in love with you, the feeling of being my self
*oh wait it's not so short any more haha*
the point of this writing is:
i choose not to imagine the what if
i don't love you
i'm over you
but you're always welcome
and i miss the feeling, not you ;D
and so, i'll just skip this senseless intention of giving you a visit at the art exhibition
i'll let go another chance to meet you
and i'm keeping more of the commonsense more than the heart again
we will meet again eventually when we should just meet
why try so hard then, right?
1 comment:
"oh what if..
if you had given me the chance
if you had glimpsed a little
if you just had a look
if you just tried"
just if
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